One of the things that bothers me to no end is how fathers are underappreciated. I won’t ever forget how, despite his exhaustion and the emotional toll of worrying about his wife and baby, no one took care of my husband during our baby’s birth. The most ironic part of this story is that because I knew no one was taking care of him, I was worried about him, and as we know, worrying has adverse effects on one’s physical well-being.
Now the interesting thing is that, however passionate I am as an individual about this topic, I still live in a society that breeds a certain indifference towards the capacity of fathers. And this belief, which has molded and shaped the structures of our society, has also affected me. This effect is, in my opinion, even more dangerous: because of my passion for the elevation of fatherhood to its full worth, I can and am often blinded by sometimes very subtle actions that are, in fact, breeding the same type of indifference but in a much more insidious way.
Now as all parents know, the first couple of months are particularly exhausting. Night feeding, crap naps, witching hour, clinginess of a baby introduced to a brand-new world—a lot of demands are being made that are unique to this time period and uniquely tiring. I saw the effect this had on my husband and decided that I would take care of him by taking on as much as I could of our baby’s care.
Oh, how this backfired. In my drive to make sure my husband didn’t feel as exhausted as I did, I took away from him and our baby the precious opportunities that I have had to get to bond with her and get to know her. And one of the underlying assumptions that kept me going was that men weren’t built to do this the way women are. In other words, that men don’t have the capacity to go through these first few weeks like women do.
Thankfully, I realised this early on and was able to address this underlying assumption. I still take care of my husband as much as I can, but not by “hogging” our baby’s care. Rather, taking care of my husband now includes giving him the time he craves to be with her. This gave given the two of them precious time to bond and connect, and has given me the precious opportunity to sit back and watch their relationship blossom.